8.31.2011

Wordbreak Wednesday


Wordbreak: point of division in a word that runs onto the next line pausing


found poetry prework


Monday night I managed some "art” time and worked on the found poetry assignment from Raw Art Journaling with Artists of the Roundtable. I used an old Discipleship Journal magazine and had a wonderful time cutting out words and arranging them into a poem. I’m so glad I took this photo because I’ve yet to get around to pasting the words on paper and they accidentally got moved around today! I think I can recreate it…

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8.30.2011

Tuesday Tuism

Tuism – Apostrophe; reference to or regard to a 2nd person


A few books to share with you tonight…

Now You See It: How the Brain Science of Attention Will Transform the Way We Live, Work, and Learn


1.  Today, S and I went to a “Meet the Author” event at our local Indie bookstore. The book was Cathy Davidson’s Now You See It: How the Brain Science of Attention Will Transform the Way We Live, Work, and Learn. Very interesting speaker! S surprised me and bought both of us a copy. :-)


2. Yesterday I stopped by to drop off some books at a used bookstore and found two treasures on their art shelf: Draw In: A Peek into the Inspiring Sketchbooks of 44 Fine Artists, Illustrators, Graphic Designers, and Cartoonists Pretty excited about this one!
 

… and How to Be and Explorer of the World": Portable Life Museum. The author (Keri Smith) has a pretty cool looking blog I’d like to hang out at for a while.

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8.29.2011

Mayhap Monday


…what the week may hold…
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This is a late “Mayhap Monday” but…

1. Today – work, errands, help Mary (see above) and friend J with their edible cell models after school. :-)
2. Goodie bag off to our girl E at college. Today was the first day of classes!
3. Some church website work.
4. Meet the Author at a local indie bookstore.
5. Lunch with The Girl. :-)
6. Sew “quillow” with Mary and friend M.
7. Special worship service at church on Wednesday night!
8. One dog to vet; both for a MUCH-NEEDED grooming!
9. Try to catch up with the Raw Art Journaling Workshop at Artists of the Roundtable.
9. Looking forward to a lonnnng, quiet weekend!

You?

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8.27.2011

Saturday Satisfice

Satisfice: to aim or achieve that which will suffice me and mattie

Last night we spent some time with a group of friends celebrating a birthday. We laughed and talked and ate and danced. (Yes, danced - much to the horror of the teenagers who were present!). While we were dancing (Funky Town, Purple Rain, No Parking on the Dance Floor…. I can’t recall…ha!), Matt said to me, “We’ve been married a thousand years.”

Yes, it does seem like forever. I don’t know if all couples begin to feel this way after they’ve been together a  long time or if it has to do with us growing up in the same hometown and getting married so young. But I can’t imagine not being together. 25 years… wow! And to this boy whose first words to me in the lobby of our high school gymnasium were, “Hey, goofy.”
The photo above was taken last night. Not a great quality photo, but pretty good of both of us. We generally take terrible pictures as a couple… Matt’s eyes are always closed and I tend to either look drunk or angry.
So, bad quality or not, this is a decent photo of two people who have been married “a thousand years.” I am very much satisfied with this gift of marriage I’ve been given.

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8.25.2011

Thrum Thursday

Thrum – the end of warp which is not woven but remains on the loom when the woven fabric has been cut free.

“One may have a blazing hearth in one's soul and yet no one ever came to sit by it. Passers-by see only a wisp of smoke from the chimney and continue on their way.” ~Vincent Van Gogh

Van Gogh is my favorite artist. I love his work. And I love his story. This quote of his makes me think of all the people we simply walk by in a day and don’t really know what’s inside them…. What are they suffering today? What are their joys?  What are they going home to? What are they running away from? Like his street scene here in CafĂ© Terrace at Night, there are so many people we see everyday, people we sit beside in an office building, pass money to at a cash register, smile and say hello to at church. People with a blazing hearth who we see as only a wisp of smoke.

Yesterday on the way home from taking Mary to see The Help I looked in my rearview mirror and saw a neighborhood mom run into the road, look both ways, then grab her head before turning around and running back to her house. For a second I thought I would just keep driving… we were just a little way from home. Mary had a ton of homework and it was already after 7pm. I was exhausted and ready to get into my pj’s. I didn’t even really know the woman. Mary is getting to be friends with her daughter. Her husband and I worked together briefly many, many years ago. But, really, she was just a wisp of smoke to me.

But I made a u-turn and went back to her house. I already knew what was wrong. I recognized the panic. Her youngest, a six-year old boy with Down’s Syndrome was missing. “He was just in the garage! Just a minute ago!” she told me. She already had her older children out on bikes looking for him. I dropped Mary off at home to tell her Dad what was going on and to enlist his help. I then began driving around the neighborhood looking for a small boy I had never to my knowledge set eyes on. I kept coming back to our neighborhood lake and peering down the grassy edge by the water, praying, “Please, God, let him be safe.”

An hour later as the sun was setting my own mother-panic was beginning to kick in at the thought of this boy being lost in the dark. The police had been called and many, many other neighbors were out helping… on foot, on bikes, in cars. And then…. the boy was found! I was told he came riding home in a golf cart sitting on an elderly gentleman’s lap. Ah – blessings and glory and honor and all praise to the Lord God Almighty!

I’m glad I didn’t continue on my way yesterday. I’m glad I turned around and went back to ask what was wrong. I’m glad I had the chance to try to comfort this mother whose sufferings and joys are played out so close to me but who I know so little about. And frankly who I had never stopped to even consider.

I spoke to many neighbors I hadn’t spoken to in years probably as we checked in with each other to see if anyone had found him yet. So many people that live their days and nights so close to me yet who could just as well be living in another state. I watch from my window as wisps of smoke eek slowly from their chimneys.

I would like to do better.
Luke 10:25-37 ESV
And behold, a lawyer stood up to put him to the test, saying, “Teacher, what shall I do to inherit eternal life?” He said to him, “What is written in the Law? How do you read it?” And he answered, “You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your strength and with all your mind, and your neighbor as yourself.” And he said to him, “You have answered correctly; do this, and you will live.” But he, desiring to justify himself, said to Jesus, “And who is my neighbor?” ...

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8.23.2011

Tuesday Tuism

Tuism – Apostrophe; reference to or regard to a 2nd person



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1. Take a look at this connect-the-dot Mona Lisa. Incredible! The artist is Thomas Pavitte in Australia. His site is worth visiting!



2. I came across the quote I’m putting in the front page of my Raw Art Journal above at Inspired by This Feeling. Good place to be… well… inspired!




3.  I love this “Post Cup” idea, but at $52 it’s a little too much for me. But, still, I can enjoy!

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8.22.2011

Mayhap Monday

…what this week may hold…

mayhap

1. Monday – early morning for work after an exhausting (but good) weekend in DC. Not feeling too well this evening. Probably just need a good sleep.

2.  Tuesday – sit in on chapel at Mary’s school in the morning then head to work…. cook dinner. Any ideas?

3.  Wednesday – just work. Maybe take Mary to see The Help.

4.  Thursday – possibly a ‘31’ party in the evening.

5.  Friday – planning a weekend to the beach with some friends, but it looks like there might be a hurricane a brewing! A quiet weekend at home is okay, too!

6.  Spend some time drawing.

7.  Start painting dresser for art room with Mary.

8.  Read The Magician’s Nephew with Mary at night. (We plan to read the whole series together this  year.) :-)

9.  Do some yard work! Yikes!!

Overall, a quiet week! Hooray!!

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8.21.2011

Saturday Satisfice (on Sunday)

Satisfice: to aim or achieve that which will suffice
 E's room


I’m in the lobby of our hotel while E and her Dad catch a little more sleep time. We managed to finally get to the school yesterday around 4pm after wads of traffic on I-95. Ugh. And the big news is….

We got everything unloaded, up to the room, and unpacked! Hooray!

We were exhausted and stumbled to the hotel for dinner, but it was all good. E met her roommate and she seems like a sweet girl. They will go to a ballgame together this afternoon which I think is such a good thing for E to have something specific to do as we are leaving her.

After all the time of preparing, I’m happy with her room and I think she is too. We need to get a few more things for the wall, but other than that I think we did pretty well. Her boyfriend has a trip planned to visit in a couple of weeks so I’m sure we’ll be sending along some more goodies then.

That’s all for now! Looking forward to a long, quiet drive home with hubby this afternoon! :-)

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8.20.2011

Fain Friday

Fain – happy, inclined, pleased

mary with new pouch pal

Mary is very pleased with her latest “Pouch Pal” creation. (He has a pink and turquois striped pouch on his back.) This fella is for a friend next door. I must say he's probably my favorite. She's getting more and more creative each iteration.

Most of today has been spent preparing E to head to DC tomorrow! Whew! I’m looking forward to the long drive and some SLEEP! :-)

Not sure what tomorrow will hold so I guessing I'll break this blogging streak I've been on. It's been good to be writing and drawing and such again. Night!

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8.18.2011

Thrum Thursday

Thrum – the end of warp which is not woven but remains on the loom when the woven fabric has been cut free.


rainbowhouses with frame


Today I stole away from a busy day for a quick lunch with a new friend. While waiting for her to arrive, I read a little from the Pinesong Awards 2011. Amazing how poetry can still a restless heart and make it listen to its own beat.

Rhett Iseman Trull was the winner of the Brockman-Campbell Book Award for The Real Warnings. The opening line of her poem published in Pinesong has found a space in the warp and woof of my soul tonight:

Heart by heart the house
will empty, thread by thread all hems
unstitch.

My girlie is almost all packed up! I’m pretty sure Trull’s poem is talking about death, and this child’s leaving, and her brother’s leaving less than a year ago, are anything but bad. He into a wonderful marriage. And she off to her dream college.
But in a way I can see that children leaving home is a “kind” of death… Not all bad - but still a death all the same. A death to what once was… along with a birth of what will be.

I am trying not to cling, Trull goes on to say in her poem.

Yes, I am trying.

G’Night and blessings all.

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8.17.2011

Wordbreak Wednesday

Wordbreak: point of division in a word that runs onto the next line pausing

just george framed
This is George. My gremlin. He tells me things like…. “You’re not a writer.” “You’re too old to be an artist now.” “Really, there are a million other things you should be doing instead of writing or painting.” “You think this is original?”

He’s pretty tough. And just when I  get to a place where I’m able to ignore his insistent, whiney, voice, George wags his tiny, little, pitiful tail and I can’t help but feel tugs at my heartstrings and pay attention to him all over again! Sigh.

George is Lesson 1A in a workshop I’ve started with Artists of the Roundtable. It’s lead by Quinn McDonald, the author of Raw Art Journaling. I have GREAT expectations for myself and this workshop!

***
I’m listening to Alice Munro’s short story collection Too Much Happiness. I’ve been struck by how simply, but effectively she describes her characters. One character she described as having “a mole riding on one cheekbone.” Good, huh?

This description of a character at the beginning of a story titled “Wenlock Edge” is a prime example of Munro’s giftedness:

”His own name was Ernie Botts. He was a tall florid man with a good-natured expression, a big square face, and fair curly hair springing straight up from his forehead. His hands, his fingernails, were as clean as soap, and his hips were a little plump. My name for him – when he was not around – was Earnest Bottom. I had a mean tongue.”

***
Finally, here’s some words I like and plan to work into a piece of art somehow. I found it over at The Fiction We Live. Remember, I told you about her yesterday? The cupcake stand? Right.

Put your work boots on tomorrow, bloggy friends! G’Night.

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8.16.2011

Tuesday Tuism

Tuism – Apostrophe; reference to or regard to a 2nd person



weirdo

Here are a few “finds & treasures” for you tonight:



1. Loving this from i can read.

2. I’m enjoying “Humming Right Along”, a creative gal I’ve known for a long time!



3. How about this DIY cupcake stand from The Fiction We Live? I’m picturing all kinds of variations…

Oh – the weird little fella above? He’s the product of a long morning meeting and doodling that truly does help me pay attention! :-)

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8.15.2011

Mayhap Monday

…what this week may hold…
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1. Pack, pack, and pack some more to get E ready to head off to school on Saturday!!
2. Wednesday – take the day off work to spend with E. :-)
3. Thursday – lunch with a new friend who also works in the same small town I do.
4. Thursday evening – dinner with friends & E to wish her well before leaving for school.
5. Friday – take the day off to get everything ready and packed in the car to head to DC!!
6. Saturday – leave for DC, unload everything in E’s room, and spend one last night with her at a hotel.
7. Sunday – Unpack and get her room set up. Drive home to NC sans E and try not to cry the whole way home. I’m going to miss her!! But she’s going to do soooo good!

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8.14.2011

Sunday Susurrus

I’m thinking tonight of what a lucky girl I am to be married to the most compassionate, most funny, most wonderful man there is!

Happy Birthday, Mattie! I love you!
Top: Baby Matt… I LOVE this photo of him. He really hasn’t changed at all!

From left to right:
1. Serious Matt…. preparing to swim at Half Ironman a few months back.
2. Laughing Matt… with his buddy working on a friend’s dishwasher.
3. Daddy Matt… with his Boy just after the wedding.
4. Kissing Matt… with me (of course!) just after the wedding.
5. Talking Matt… giving directions to the prenuptial feast.

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8.13.2011

Saturday Satisfice

Satisfice: to aim or achieve that which will suffice
 

Much goings-on around here, bloggy friends. Thought at the end of my week I should share some things with you that I find satisfying…. or “That Which Will Suffice”. (Click on "View Slide Show" to see the photos!)
From left to right:
#1. Here’s the pile of dorm room supplies E & I have been gathering the past few weeks. Yesterday I shopped about four hours alone, picking up the things she really doesn’t care about – drying rack, suitcase, under-the-bed storage bin, hangers, closet organizers, a stock of must-have toiletries just to name a few. Neither E nor I are much on shopping. For some women I know it’s a sport of sorts, but for us it’s torture. Not that we don’t like getting things, it’s just that we don’t enjoy the process of dressing rooms, sale-searching, and crowd-fighting. But we are almost there! What’s left, you ask? An umbrella, a robe (a nice big fluffy one that goes chin-to-floor since she’ll be not only in a coed dorm, but on a coed floor! Be still my mother’s heart!!), shower shoes, and a rain jacket. She wants to pick up another pair of sandals, but I’m leaving that one to her. In SEVEN short days, we’ll be heading off to DC to move her into her dorm room and meet her roommate. Yikes!!
#2. & #3. Ta-da!! Matt, Mary and I have been working for a while on an Art/Writing/Reading room. It’s The Boy’s old room. We painted it blue stripes, put up shelves from Ikea, moved and organized a BUNCH of my books from downstairs shelves, and finished the door table. Hooray! These two photos are of the table. It’s g-g-g-r-r-r-eat!! I was waiting to share photos until we were 100% finished, but with everything going on, it might take us a little while to get all the details finished. (We have a dresser and chifforobe to paint, bulletin boards to hang, and a light fixture to purchase.) So I’ll give you a peek here and there. Mary and I are loving it!
#4. Mary and I recovered this ottoman with fabric she picked out. It was originally made for her nursery by a very talented friend of mine. It’s in the art room with a white chair I purchased from the Coalition for $15. *Smile* I’m very satisfied with how it turned out!
#5. Dingo is hanging out with us until Monday night. His mommy and daddy are at the beach with Dingo’s other grandparents. It’s good to have a grand-dog, even if he is a bit of a handful!
Good night!

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8.12.2011

Fain Friday - weekWORD

Fain – happy, inclined, pleased
  
Today I am happy to be participating in weekWORD again. I even have a nifty little sidebar badge from Carmen. See? Click on it and you will be whisked away to a portal that will track the current weekWORD and host. Go ahead, click over there and take a look. I'll wait.
Good. Wish you would play along with us. This week's hostess is Carmen at Tails of a Biomouse, a blog well worth reading. She has chosen Quixotic [kwik-sot-ik] for this week's word. It means: 
  • resembling or befitting Don Quixote
  • extravagantly chivalrous or romantic; visionary, impractical,or impracticable.
  • impulsive and often rashly unpredictable.
What I like best about weekWORD is the places it can take you creatively.  Of course quixotic made me think of windmills (ala Don Quixote)... which made me think of wind... which made me think of "winds of change".... which made me think of all the changes this period of my life holds: friends moving away, a son recently married, a daughter leaving for college, my youngest actually taller than me at 12(!).... but other things, as well.... still mourning the death of a good friend... all the physical changes that start happening around 40 (yes, it's true!)... And even yesterday I got word of a really, really good change that is about to happen (more on that at an appropriate later time), but still it's change all the same.
So, here's my representation of this week's word below. I drew first in pencil on regular drawing paper, then outlined with a Micron pen. 

winds of change b&w
Next I scanned her in, added color with Photo Shop, and then recolored and pasted in the quote I handlettered from earlier this week.

winds-of-change-colored with frame

I'm planning to color the original now that I have it safely scanned in, but I'm not sure what media I'll use yet. I also think I'll print this out, frame it, and put it somewhere to remind myself in the midst of all the change of this season of life to remember what I know to be true - mainly that God is still on  His throne (as a good friend used to tell me) and that He is good.

Oh! I found this great, great, GREAT quote from Catherine the Great (ha!) on winds of change:

"A great wind is blowing, and that gives you either imagination or a headache."

Is that not wonderful?!


Click over to Carmen's to see all the other links to posts on this week's word AND to find out who next week's host will be. 

Blessings -

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8.11.2011

Thrum Thursday

Thrum – the end of warp which is not woven but remains on the loom when the woven fabric has been cut free.

look framed

While we were at the beach I started reading Brilliant: The Evolution of Artificial Light. For some reason, I read the first few chapters and then put it down. It was a really good read, though, and I plan to finish it. Not sure why I stopped.
In chapter three, “Lanterns at Sea”, there was a lot of information about whaling in the 1800’s. Two sentences planted themselves firmly in my head and and I haven’t been able to get them out since. That’s what Thrum Thursday is all about…. taking those little loose bits of thread left on the loom and seeing what you can make of them….

So, here are those two sentences:

”Whales have always inexplicably beached themselves, and once out of their element, they can’t survive for long. Exposed fully to the sun, their skin burns, and they are crushed by their own weight.” (pg. 38)
It was the thought of the whales being “crushed by their own weight” that captured me. In the water, everything is fine. The water buoys up their bulk and blankets their skin from the scorching sun. But “once out of their element” the whale’s body betrays her and she dies – suffocating under her own weight while being slowly roasted to death by the sun.
And this is where my mind has been lingering…. Like water is to the whale, what is my “element” without which I cannot live? Why do I sometimes “inexplicably” remove myself from where I can thrive and be well? And then go to a place where there is the potential for self-destruction?

There are many things I consider “my element”:

Being vulnerable and real with my husband and children. 
Being in relationship with other people.
Being able to give myself space to create in one way or another.

But mainly, after living some 42 odd years, I’ve found for certain that my most basic, most needful “element” is God. I have been made, I have been created, to commune with Him, to worship Him, to live in right relationship to Him as the created adoring the Creator.

And when I’m not? When I start hauling myself out of the safety and comfort of His waters? I find the very weight of myself too heavy to bear. Without seeking God everyday, without reading His Word, being with His people, worshipping at the foot of His Cross, I am unprotected from the scorching rays of this dry world, and I begin to shrivel and melt within myself.
But when – as always because He will never, ever leave me or forsake me – I turn back to Him and sink into that wonderful, mysterious, unfathomable depth that is God, then all the other things (love, relationship, and creativity) click back into place.

My “element” is simply Christ. Without Him I cannot survive.    

O to grace how great a debtor
Daily I’m constrained to be!
Let Thy goodness, like a fetter,
Bind my wandering heart to Thee.
Prone to wander, Lord, I feel it,
Prone to leave the God I love;
Here’s my heart, O take and seal it,
Seal it for Thy courts above.
(~Come, Thou Fount of Every Blessing)
He (Christ) is the image of the invisible God, the firstborn over all creation. For by him all things were created: things in heaven and on earth, visible and invisible, whether thrones or powers or rulers or authorities; all things were created by him and for him. He is before all things, and in him all things hold together. (~the Apostle Paul to the saints in Colosse)

Blessings, bloggy friends.

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8.10.2011

Wordbreak Wednesday

Wordbreak: point of division in a word that runs onto the next line pausing


what-you-know framed

Here are some words I found here (and *loved*), redrew in a font called “French manicure”, and colored in Photoshop. Oh! And the color palette is from COLOURlovers and is called Van Gogh's Bedroom.

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8.09.2011

Tuesday Tuism

Tuism – Apostrophe; reference to or regard to a 2nd person

sneaky bunny

Here’s three “finds & treasures” from some talented ladies out in Bloglandria:

1. Beautiful embroidered ampersand by Cornflower Blue…. gives me lots of ideas… It’s like doodling with thread! And you should stop by her etsy shop and take a look at these amazing barnacle soft sculptures.



2. Check out this pattern for a sweet crochet mug cozy from Crafty Anna. It has me wishing for those cool autumn mornings on the porch drinking my morning cup of java!



3.  Yep. I like this from enhabiten.



PS. The sneaky bunny was made by sneaky me today when I slipped away and found a little time to create. (Via Carla Sonheim’s tutorial.)

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8.08.2011

Mayhap Monday

…what this week may hold…
mayhap monday
1. Life Group tonight watching the last video in this series we’ve been going through.

2. Super-early workdays Tuesday – Friday….good place to be, but argh!!

3. Tuesday night dinner with E’s boy’s parents at the restaurant where they both work.

4.  Going to see The Help Wednesday night. Loved the book!

5.  Neighborhood dinner on Friday – a German theme…which I think means a big variety of beer!

6.  Reading: Major Pettingrew’s Last Stand and Foundations of the Christian Faith (Book II)

7.  Saturday shopping with E for final clothes and dorm room stuff. Good grief, she’ll be gone before we know it!

8.  Sunday Life Group celebration luncheon (+ Matt’s B-day! Hooray!) before taking a break for a few weeks.

9.  Draw, paint, or write SOMETHING!!

10. Blog. (Smile, here.)

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8.07.2011

Sunday Susurrus–Shame

susurrus \su-SUHR-uhs\, noun: A whispering or rustling sound; a murmur 

holy shells 3
There are winds of change blowing around here, bloggy friends. No deaths, divorces, or grave illnesses. No loss of employment. No tragedies.

But change, never-the-less.
Today we said good-bye to a young family, the dad of which we’ve known for years. An orphan, we tried to care for him as best as we could. He lived with us here and there, sleeping on the floor or couch when our house was too full to give him a bed, sharing meals and washing laundry. Matt and The Boy were both groomsmen in his wedding and I was honored to sit in his mother’s place on the front pew. Now he and his wife and young son are heading across country so he can work on his masters at seminary. Then, he hopes, on to another masters and a doctorate perhaps. Maybe those will bring him back to North Carolina. But I don’t know. He will be a spectacular professor one day.
Friday was good-bye to a friend I’ve had for 12+ years. A friend who was pregnant with a daughter at the same time I was with Mary. Our girls were born just two weeks apart. She took care of Mary with her daughter when I had to go back to work. They shared birthdays together. We walked through some very sad times on both parts together. Now she’s taken her four kids and left for a new future in Texas. It is right for her, I know. But still there is an empty spot left where she should be. I thought she would always be just down the road.
And then there’s E… she’s off to college in just two short weeks! It’s hard to imagine her not being here, popping in and out from work, school, and friends…. Going for impromptu lunches and having afternoon talks…. It is good and right and a blessing that she has this opportunity. But it is hard. So very hard.

I’ve been working on a project of mine and Mary’s for the whole summer…. I’ll share more of that with you soon….(The photo contains a tiny glimpse) Part of the project has required that I weed through and sort all of the books in our house – no small task! Yesterday I came across Thomas Merton’s Seven Storey Mountain, his autobiography that I read years ago. While flipping through the pages, I found this passage highlighted and asterisked in orange:
“The anguish of this self-knowledge is inescapable even on earth, as long as there is any self-love left in us: because it is pride that feels the burning of that shame. Only when all pride, all self-love has been consumed in our souls by the love of God, are we delivered from the thing which is the subject of those torments. It is only when we have lost all love of our selves for our own sakes that our past sins cease to give us any cause for suffering or for the anguish of shame.

For the saints, when they remember their sins, do not remember the sins but the mercy of God, and therefore even past evil is turned by them into a present cause of joy and serves to glorify God.” (pg. 322-323)
Telling these dear ones good-bye this weekend brought up regrets – regret and shame that we weren’t I wasn’t there more for this young man that so needed a mom….. that I wasn’t more compassionate, more present to the sufferings of this dear friend…. that I wasn’t a better mother, that I didn’t more wisely use this very short time we had with our girl living under our very roof.

And is there sin in these regrets? Yes, I think, probably. Sins of omission maybe, but sins even so. I didn’t love my neighbor (whether friend or family member) as myself.
But these words of Merton’s – oh, yes! It is still my pride that causes me to have this regret, this shame. Pride, the root of all evil. It is only when we have lost all love of ourselves for our own sakes that our past sins cease to give us any cause for suffering or for the anguish of shame….For the saints… do not remember the sins but the mercy of God
And, my! Hasn’t the mercy of God been great?!
May all pride and self-love be consumed in my soul and I only see my past failings and sins as reason to give God more praise for His unmerited and unfailing mercy and love.
Amen and amen.

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I sought the Lord, and He answered me; He delivered me from all my fears. Psalm 34:4